Shut down

Sometimes when the openess becomes so open and the best version of one’s self is present…. she tries not to shut down. She loves the rush, the crave of her discretion… and willingness to not always be so ready to be open. So… when her vulnerability shows up…. she becomes like a wet noodle… Heavy and full of transparency.

No one can un wet the noodle… nor create it to transform back into it’s original form. Her openess becomes so open and the best version of one’s self is present and it shows. She shuts down and is willing to no longer be available for openess. Wishing for that dry pasta version of herself. Thoughts of “How can she be listened to, valued and respected, if she can’t be authentically open.” Then the noodle becomes the dry pasta, version of herself and automatically she shuts the kitchen down. Creating her own meals, sauces and dishes. Dining alone. Thank you for listening.